There is no deceitfulness in a pure, loving heart, and this love is most pure in Vraja.
When the sādhaka follows in the footsteps of Kṛṣṇa’s devotees in Vraja the rays of the moon of rāga bhakti will be reflected in his crystal-clear heart. Then love will be free from deceit.
Outside of Vraja all forms of love of God are more or less mixed with feelings of awe and reverence, even in the ‘appendix of Vraja-līlā’, Navadvīpa-līlā.
Rāmānanda Rāya was, for instance, Viśākhā-sakhī in Vraja, so he should have had pure fraternal love for Śrīman Mahāprabhu. But when he met the Lord on the bank of the Godāvari-river, and their mutual love arose, Rāma Rāya could not take the Lord to his own home.
The Vedic brāhmaṇas invited the Lord and Rāya respectfully told Him:
kāhā tumi sākṣāt īśvara nārāyaṇa; kāhāṅ mui rājasevī śūdrādhama
mora sparśe nā korile ghṛṇa veda bhaya; mora daraśana tomā vede niṣedhaya
ākṛtye prākṛtye tomāra īśvara lakṣaṇa; jīve nā sambhave ei aprākṛta guṇa
“Where are You, Lord Nārāyaṇa Himself, and where am I, a royal servant and a lowly śūdra? You did not fear the Vedic injunctions by touching me, although the Vedas forbid You to touch me. Both in form and nature You show all the symptoms of God. Such transcendental attributes are not possible in a mere living entity.”
(C.C. Madhya 8.43)
But Kṛṣṇa’s friends in Vraja eat His food and climb on His shoulder! Therefore there is no other place but Vraja which is free from any whiff of awe and reverance.
Without allegiance to the people of Vraja there will inevitably come some aiśvarya-jñāna (feeling of lordliness about Kṛṣṇa). Śrī Kṛṣṇa is the Supreme Personality of Godhead, the complete non-dual truth and Śrī Rādhā is the Supreme Goddess (svayaṁ bhagavatī), the complete mahā bhāva. This is the tattva-side of it, but what we know is the rasa-side – He’s Śrī Rādhā’s Prāṇa Bandhu!
Śrī Rūpa Gosvāmī humbly stayed in Haridāsa Ṭhākura’s cottage at Purī, afraid to approach Mahāprabhu directly.
But in Vraja, as Rūpa Mañjarī, he prays:
karuṇāṁ muhur arthaye paraṁ tava vṛndāvana cakravartini
api keśiripor yathā bhavet sa cāṭu prārthana bhājanaṁ janaḥ
(Cāṭu Puṣpāñjali, 23)
“O empress of Vṛndāvana! O Śrī Rādhike! Please make Keśiripu (Kṛṣṇa, or the selfsame Mahāprabhu!) pitifully pray to me (for Your audience)!”
The sweet mood towards Kṛṣṇa, totally free from awe, is nowhere else to be found but in the shelter of Śrī Rādhā’s lotus feet.
Śrīla Rūpa Gosvāmī shows that even in Vraja there is more awe and reverence felt by Candrāvalī than by Śrī Rādhikā:
nijam agharipunāṁse nyastam ākṛsya savyaṁ bhujam iha nidadhānād akṣam asrokṣitākṣī
padayugam api baṅkaṁ śaṅkayā vikṣipantī prati yuvati vayasyāṁ smerayāmāsa gaurī
(Ujjvala Nīlamaṇi Sthāyi 91)
“Candrāvali takes her left arm from Kṛṣṇa’s shoulder while they are dancing in the Rāsa-festival and embraces Him with her right arm instead. Carefully and crookedly she moves both her feet, being afraid that she will hit Kṛṣṇa’s feet while they dance together. Seeing this, all the other young girls laugh!”
How freely and sweetly our Svāminī dances! How freely and independently She lifts Her feet upon Śyāma’s chest!
Śrī Rūpa says: “I am a maidservant of that Rādhā, that’s why Śyāma is simply wandering behind me!”
In Kāśī (Benares), Śrīman Mahāprabhu and Sanātana Gosvāmī embraced Each other, to the astonishment of Candra Śekhara.
dui jane galāgali rodana apāra;
dekhi candra śekharera hoilo camatkāra
(C.C.)
Śrī Gaurāṅga had just returned from Vṛndāvana and was in the ecstasy of Virahiṇī (separated) Rādhā and Śrī Sanātana Gosvāmī was absorbed in his siddha svarūpa of Labaṅga Mañjarī.
Both were absorbed in their ‘previous’ moods (of Kṛṣṇa’s Vraja-līlā), but as soon as they returned to external consciousness, the mood of awe and reverence returned.
Sanātana then said:
more prabhu nā koro sparśana! – “O My Lord, don’t touch me!”
And the Lord said:
tomā sparśi pavitra hoite; bhakti-bole pāra tumi brahmāṇḍa śodhite – “I’m touching you to purify Myself. On the strength of your devotion you can purify the whole universe!”
The service of Śrī Rādhā is Śrīman Mahāprabhu’s gift, and was taught by Himself and by the ācāryas who surrendered to His lotus feet. When one’s siddha svarūpa awakens, feelings of separation from Śrī Rādhā will become very strong.
‘I want to see You today, at this moment! I won’t waste anymore time! I’m alone, without any company! With whom else but You should I stay?”
That’s the mood of someone who was touched by Śrī Rādhārānī’s mood.
Mahāprabhu weeps:
yugāyitaṁ nimeṣena cakṣuṣā prāvṛṣāyitam
śūnyāyitaṁ jagat sarvaṁ govinda viraheṇa me
udvege divasa nā yāy kṣaṇa hoilo yuga sama;
varṣāra megha prāya aśru variṣe nayana
govinda virahe śūnya hoilo tribhuvana;
tuṣānale poḍe yeno nā yāy jīvana {C.C.}
“Because of My agitation the day will not pass, a second appears to be like an age to Me and My eyes are like monsoon clouds that shower tears. Out of separation from Govinda the three worlds became empty. I am burning in a slowfire and My life will not leave Me!”
Śrī Dāsa Gosvāmī is in that state. “I feel so much pain in my heart! Please stop my misery, show Yourself to me today!” How deeply he is absorbed in his siddha svarūpa! Now he is not Raghunātha, now he is Tulasī Mañjarī and falls on the bank of Śrī Rādhākuṇḍa, anxiously lamenting: “O Beautiful lake! How many pastimes isn’t my Īśvarī playing on Your banks with Her most dearly beloved Priyatama? How dear you are to Rādhā-Śyāma! I don’t want anything else! Please show me Īśvarī’s lotus feet just once!”
Some of this love-in-separation for Svāminī will also awaken in the heart of the practising devotee who follows in the footsteps of such an ācārya as Śrīla Raghunātha dāsa Gosvāmī.
– From the tika of Srila Ananta das Babaji and Srila Ananda Gopal Goswami to Sri Sri Vilapa Kusumanjali
