In his transcendental vision, Śrī Raghunātha relishes the blissful eagerness on Rādhikā´s lotus-like face.
When the practising devotees follow in the footsteps of the ācāryas they can also relish the sweetness of Svāminī’s face in their meditations.
In deep meditation the vicinity of the beloved deity is vividly experienced. The devotee will no longer think: “I am practising smaraṇa”.
Great anxiety for the direct meeting with the beloved deity will awaken in the heart of a devotee whose meditation ends. The more he relishes, the more anxious he will be for more. It is not proper to feel satisfied after a little experience has come. The more one’s thirst and eagerness increases, the closer the final attainment of the deity will come.
How eager Śrī Rūpa and Raghunātha are! It is as if their chests (hearts) are breaking! When the birds and animals on the bank of Rādhākuṇḍa hear Śrī Raghunātha anxiously crying out of separation, they all cry along, making it known that they are feeling the same pain! Visions (sphūrtis) are more relishable than smaraṇa, meditations or dreams. During visions the experience is quite vivid. The beloved can be seen through the eyes and the meditation can be realized with closed eyes.
When Śrīla Bilvamaṅgala Ṭhākura came to Vṛndāvana he saw Kṛṣṇa wherever he cast his glance. He went up to Him to catch Him, but then he understood – it was not a direct meeting, it was a vision. How clear were his visions!
mauliś candraka bhūṣaṇo marakata stambhābhirāmaṁ vapur
vaktraṁ citra vimugdha hāsa madhuraṁ bāle vilole dṛśau
vācaḥ śaiśava śītalā mada gaja ślāghyā vilāsa sthitir
mandaṁ mandam aye ka eṣa mathurā vīthīṁ mitho gāhate
“Who is that, playfully and slowly entering Mathurā (Vṛndāvana) over the road like an intoxicated elephant, wearing a crest of peacockfeathers, His body as enchanting as an emerald pillar, an enchanting smile on His face, casting playful, wanton glances with His restless eyes, and speaking words that are cooled off by adolescence?”
(Śrī Kṛṣṇa Karnāmṛta – 57)
Although from this it seems that Bilvamangala saw Kṛṣṇa, this was not a natural view – it was the end of a vision! A practising devotee who is fixed in bhajan will also get slight experiences like this. Bhajan will make a new life for him! He can test himself. Svāminī will certainly respond to someone’s strong and powerful bhajan. She will come close and accept his devotional service.
She is the boundless ocean of compassion, endowed with a lovely nature. She is the wish-yielding vine for the devotees. Śrīpāda Prabodhānanda Sarasvatī has written:
mañju svabhāvam adhi kalpalatā nikuñjaṁ vyanjantam adbhuta kṛpā rasa puñjam eva
premāmṛtāmbudhim agādham avādham etaṁ rādhābhidhaṁ drutam upāśraya sādhu cetaḥ
(Rādhā Rasa Sudhānidhi 28)
“O saintly mind! Quickly take shelter of sweet natured Rādhā, Who is like a grove full of wishyielding vines, Who reveals a wonderful abundance of powerful rasika compassion, and Who is a deep and unbridled nectar-ocean of love!”
For attaining Her there is sādhana bhajana, for attaining Her we take shelter of a guru.
At heart the Gauḍīya Vaiṣṇavas always cry for Rādhārāṇī.
hema gauri tanu rāi,
āṅkhi daraśana cāi,
rodana koribo abhilāṣe
(Prema Bhakti Candrikā)
“My eyes desire to see the golden formed Rādhikā, and I cry out of that desire!”
– From the tika of Srila Ananta das Babaji to Sri Sri Vilapa Kusumanjali
