Whoever falls in an ocean of nectar becomes immortal and nectarean.
By the special mercy of Śrīman Mahāprabhu, Śrīla Raghunātha Dāsa similarly has become filled with prema by falling in the ocean of service to Śrī Rādhikā,
Who is sacred love personified.
He is fully absorbed in his identification as Rādhā’s maidservant.
A vision comes to him. Svāminī is sleeping.
Now the kiṅkarīs take their meal of remnants left by Svāminī before She went to sleep. How fortunate they are!
They can eat Her leftover food and betelleaves, drink the water with which She has flushed Her mouth and the water with which they have washed Her lotus feet.
This fortune is even far away from the sakhīs! While Svāminī was eating, She spat some food out on a plate as if She did not like the taste of it.
She knows the desire on Her maidservants’ mind, so in this way She grants them opportunities to enjoy Her leftover food.
How strong is Her feeling of possessiveness for Her maidservants! How tasty the food has become after having been in Her mouth.
The maidservants know this, and that’s why Tulasī calls Her Sumukhi, fairfaced girl, here.
It is as if love has met in one place, has taken the form of a kiṅkarī and is eating a share of this wonderful nectar.
The kiṅkarīs serve Svāminī ācamana (water for flushing the mouth) and Svāminī spits that water into a golden spittoon.
After Svāminī has gone to sleep, the maidservants jokingly feed Each other.
The practising devotee should also always get a particle of this prasāda in his smaraṇa.
The identification of a kiṅkarī is required, otherwise the sweetness of this mood cannot be experienced.
“How intoxicated I am with this temporary material body!”
Bodily consciousness is an evil that takes the mind in the wrong direction, therefore the sādhaka should vow this:
āna kathā nā bolibo, āna kathā nā śunibo,
sakali koribo paramārtha
prārthanā koribo sadā, lālasā abhīṣṭa kathā,
ihā vinā sakali anartha
(Prema Bhakti Candrikā)
“I will not speak anything else or hear anything else (but Kṛṣṇa-kathā), I will live a completely spiritual life.
I will always pray and yearn for topics of my beloved deity. Without this everything is simply mischief.”
The devotee should cry with his heart for some experience:
‘How unfortunate I am that I have learned about the highest thing but I cannot take to it!’
Without surrender this path cannot be attained. Some explain the word udgīrṇa bhojya in the text to mean ‘chewed betel leaves’.
Svāminī knows so many ways to give Her mercy (prasāda) to Her maidservants.
Śrīla Rūpa Gosvāmī wrote in Utkalikā Vallari (62):
āsye devyāḥ katham api mudā nyastam āsyāt tvayeśa
kṣipta parṇe praṇaya janitād devi vāmyāt tvayāgre
ākūtajñas tad ati nibhṛtaṁ carvitaṁ kharvitāṅgas
tāmbūlīyaṁ rasayati janaḥ phulla romā kadāyam
Śrī Rūpa Mañjarī has arranged for the Youthful Couple to meet in a kuñja, so They feel They should reward her somehow.
Śyāma holds Svāminī’s face and pushes His chewed betel leaves from His mouth into Her mouth.
Svāminī then makes a dirty face, as if She wants to say:
“Yek! Do I have to chew the remnants of this debauchee, whose mouth kisses so many other girls?”
Then She looks in Rūpa Mañjarī’s direction and spits the chewed betel leaves out on a plate.
In this way the maidservants are also blessed with Svāminī’s chewed food- or spice-remnants!
Śrī Rūpa Mañjarī prays: “When will I have goose pimples of ecstasy on my small body when You give me these remnants in a very lonely place?”
The practising devotee should also relish Svāminī’s loving compassion towards him when he remembers these transcendental pastimes.
His meditation has taken solid form; Svāminī’s remembrance is most blissful. Everything in this world is giving trouble and pain, and the devotee anxiously prays:
“Don’t keep me in this material world anymore! Make me a maidservant of Your lotus feet!
tuyā pāda-padma koro anucarī – How long will I have to stay in this world while I’m winding up my material existence?
The light that emanates from Svāminī’s lotus feet will make me forget māyā”.
The dāsī washes Svāminī’s mouth with water from a golden bowl. Śrīmatī spits Her mouthwater back into the golden bowl, and then She says:
“Wash My feet!”
There is a special plate for catching Her footwater also.
Tulasī introduces herself by saying: “I am a vine of devotion for You and this vine will grow higher and higher and get blooming flowers and fruits of love for You,
as long as I sprinkle it with the water with which You have flushed Your mouth and which has washed Your lotuslike feet! Other than this nectar, I will not accept anything!”
– From the tika of Srila Ananta das Babaji and Srila Ananda Gopal Goswami to Sri Sri Vilapa Kusumanjali
