guru-mukha-padma-bākya,
hṛdi kari mahāśakya,
āra nā kariha mane āśā |
Prema Bhakti Chandrika
The words from Śrī Guru’s lotus mouth have great power.
Take them into your heart and rely upon nothing else.
Śrī Raghunātha, suffering the pangs of separation from Śrī Rādhā, cries and sighs on the bank of Rādhākuṇḍa:
“O Svāmini! I cannot tolerate the pain of separation from You anymore!” How clearly he reveals the tremendous pain of separation he feels in his heart by addressing Rādhārāṇī like this! The language of the heart can only be spoken in solitude. It is the pinnacle of grief. How sweetly Raghunātha Dāsa addresses Rādhārāṇī here, calling Her Svāmini! There is an absorption in intoxication in this address. There’s not even a whiff of bodily awareness in Raghunātha’s mind; he is now Tulasī Mañjarī. The practising devotees should also fix themselves on their svarūpāveśa, for no one can get a response from Svāminī without being being totally free from māyā. As soon as the mind wanders off elsewhere, it is as if Svāminī runs away, saying:
“First become mine! When you fully surrender yourself to Me you must stick to Me like My shadow, and then you will get My response!”
Śrī Raghunātha becomes overwhelmed while he is crying, and he reveals his heartache through these verses.
“O Svāmini! I don’t have anyone else but you in this world! With whom else should I stay? I cannot carry the burden of life anymore without seeing You and serving You!”
In this way Śrī Raghunātha Dāsa Gosvāmī was in the same condition as Mahāprabhu when He wept:
tomāra darśana vine, adhanya ei rātri dine, ei kāla nā yāya kāṭāna
“Without seeing You, these days and nights are miserable and this time cannot be passed.”
Because of his suffering of separation Śrī Raghunātha himself writes: kāpi dāsī.
“I am Your fallen maidservant, that’s why my heart is burning in want of Your personal service!”
The mood of the maidservants is identical with Rādhārāṇī’s mood. Just as Rādhikā is the personification of full mahā bhāva,
so Her maidservants are the personifications of sevā rasa (the flavour of service). Their svarūpas (intrinsic conditions) are made of this service-flavour.
No one understands Rādhā-Kṛṣṇa’s wishes as well as they do, that’s why they suffer so much when they are deprived of their devotional service.
No one else is as qualified to understand, to catch experience of what are Svāminījī’s innermost feelings but them, not even Svāminī’s own girlfriends (sakhīs)!
– Srila Ananta das Babaji, tika to Sri Sri Vilapa Kusumanjali
